Mother’s Day

4/12/2013 We actually kicked off Mother’s Day on Saturday with a trip to the Mill City Farmer’s Market. We woke up early, got ready and headed to the Mill City Museum. We wondered around checking out the offerings of the local farmers. I picked up some fresh veggies, cheese and eggs. We grabbed a breakfast sandwich that was heavenly!  Then we made our way over to the cooking demonstration and kid’s activity. Tommy took Zoe over to a table where they could plant a flower for their mom, that’s me! And I sampled the salad, which was wholesome and delicious. I am not really sure what the grain was, but I enjoyed it and so did Zoe! Having Zoe hand me a flower for the first time was a wonderful mix of emotions. I was happy, proud and sad all at the same time. I can’t believe she is growing so fast. We decided we had had enough wind for the day and packed it up. We took a brief brake back home. Then it was time for me to give my hair a little t-l-c and get a trim. The next day Tommy planned for us to have a fun filled day at Target Field. This was our first time to the baseball field. It was a beautiful day, a little windy, but nice and sunny. We walked over to field before the game so we could check out the stadium. We got our picture taken in the golden glove and then made our way around the stadium. It is a beautiful baseball field, with great views of the city! Zoe loved being around all of the people! I decided that since the Twins were playing the Orioles we had to represent the home and visitor team. I grew up watching the Orioles since my dad was a fan. It was glad to be able to share a little bit of my past with Zoe.  But we were rooting for the home team, unfortunately the twins lost 0-6. Zoe had a great time despite the lose, and if it weren’t for the fact that she is one she would have been that annoying fan talking, cheering, and dancing the whole game. She is a little ball of energy.

I had a great weekend enjoying my family. I am so thankful for the man that made me a momma and the little girl I am blessed to call my daughter.

——— On another note ———

I thought this year would be easier for some reason. But who am I fooling. I think I thought because I have Zoe there is nothing to be sad about, but I can’t escape the thought that something is missing in my life when I think about Mother’s Day. So part of me tries to not think about it at all, it’s just another day. I think the thing that got me the most was seeing pictures of others with their moms on their wedding day. I know it may seem silly, but it was the thing that triggered my “emotions” (I don’t always understand what emotions I am feeling when it comes to missing my mom). To be honest I can’t put it into words how I feel or what I think about being a mom. Unfortunately I think that has a lot to do with the fact that I don’t have my mom here to share motherhood with. But I do know I owe her the credit she deserves whether she is here or not.

Dear Mom,

I can’t even begin to express how much I miss you. I just want to thank you for being the best mother to me. You know me better than I know myself. I know I am who I am today because of you. Thank you for pushing me, encouraging me, and loving me. You taught me to live life to the fullest, to laugh deeply, and to love my family whole heartedly. I couldn’t have asked for a better role model for myself and for my daughter. I am so thankful for the time that I had with you. For the memories I cherish. For the relationship that we had. I love you so very much! Happy Mother’s Day!

Love,

Your Daughter Erin

Dear Zoe,

You mean the world to me. I am so thankful that God chose me to be your mom. Mother’s Day will always be hard for me. I miss your grandma terribly. But you bring so much love and joy to my life. You are constantly challenging me to be a better person. You are always there to put a smile on my face and you always find a way to make me laugh. I am so thankful for your life. My only wish for you and I is that we don’t take our relationship for granted. It is so easy to get wrapped up in the moment or in the fast pace of life. I want us to take time to grow our relationship as mother and daughter. I want to be intentional in our relationship. I want you to understand that I will always love you unconditionally. Life will undoubtedly throw us some curve balls that will challenge our relationship, but I hope that you can hold tight to these letters and know that I only want the best for you. To be honest there will be days that I will fall short and I hope you love me despite those moments. Remember I will always be your mother.

Love,

Mom